Prince ™

The hardest part of getting old, Is dealing with regrets, Accepting there's no going back. One chance is all I get. Facing dreams that I once had That never did come true, And knowing they can't be achieved And there's nothing now to do. Recalling choices that I made That clearly changed my life. Times when I retreated When I should have stood to fight. People that I pushed away Who only meant me well. While holding on to other ones Who made my life a hell. Devoting all my energy To the work I did each day While investing little in myself As my own life slipped away. Not working hard on friendships, Or on a family of my own. So that now in this last stage of life, I find myself alone. If I had to do it all again, It wouldn't be the same. I'd live my life more for myself. My priorities would change. I would reach back more to others Who had tried to pull me close. And cherish all those p...

Regretting the moments I took for granted, Moments when I was eaten by pride and hatred. What if I had told you what I feel? Would it change my life's wheel? I was so afraid to fall in love deeply, For mending a broken heart will never be easy. I have been rotting in that hell before, And I don't want to be there anymore. But why is my heart crying in pain? Why do I feel that my life's turning so plain? Should I have told you that I love you? Should I have showed you that it's true? They say some words are better left unsaid, Emotions should be kept till they fade. No, scratch all the cowardice and negativity, Because saying what you feel is the real bravery. So what if you won't love me back? At least there will be no what if's in my mind. But it's too late for me to realize this fact, 'Cause now you're gone and you'll never be mine.

The memories keep flooding back, But not one by one. It's never that easy. Each of them, chained up, A mosaic of brokenness, Squeezing through my mind. Their sharp, crooked edges  Scraping against the walls of my brain. Each one, different in shape, But familiar in pain. They scratch against my innocence, Scarred. Something that can never be taken back. Never to heal. And when a shred of light or happiness Begins to dance through my brain, It cannot help but notice the scars around each corner, Waiting, Grinning, A constant reminder, An annoying linger and itch. Never to go away.

Alone in my head, I'm feeling so low, You wont understand, No one can know. My eyes are so tired,  I can't sleep at night, Your face haunts my dreams, When I turn out the light. It happened so suddenly,  It happened so fast, I knew all at once,  That none of this would last. Was I just a game? Was this all just for fun? Did my feelings matter,  To anyone?  "This didn't mean anything", That's what you said, As I was so shamefully, Getting up from your bed. I held my head high, As I walked by your side, Tears welling up, I was dying inside. Weeks have passed, Keeping secrets, telling lies,  I don't  have the strength,  To look either of them in the eyes.  My heart has been broken, Not once, but twice, Once by my best friend, Once by the love of my life. Deep down inside, I know it's my fault, So I'm just going to lock it,  Away in my vault.  ...

When I was born, I was dying for warmth, And as I grew, I was dying again. Dying for affection, for love. I was dying simply for a friend. Though I got all of these, I was always dying for more. Dying to get older, Dying to escape life's pause. I was dying to find someone, Dying to settle down, Dying to be happier, To have someone to wrap around. I continued dying every day Until I hit 99 and grew weak. I was dying to see my family, Dying not to fade; this I began to seek. And then I saw it in that light. I was finally dying for something to give, And I knew that I had been dying for so long That I forgot how to live.

When You Quit When time runs out and your heart needs to say so much more But the heart that should hear it is gone now forever And you are left with a raw nagging sore. Then reach for your paper, your pen and your candle And write though your heart it would burst. No fears now restrain you; no judgment; no mock; Write of your best, of your worst. When your soul is then drained of its deepest regret Then hold your true paper to the candle's clear flame That thought-laden smoke might reach to that heart And ashes, a symbol of love, yet remain.

A Cry From The Soul Trapped with nowhere to turn, life is changing beyond my control, causing this deep ache in the bottom of my soul. Someone else is pulling the strings, oh to fly, oh for wings. Escape, I want to dig my self out, filled with despair, filled with doubt. Mute not able to express, this gnawing pain and feeling of relentless distress. Tears that is not visible to the naked eye, silent screams that no one can hear. I try to speak but nothing can express, this feeling of sadness and worthlessness. Emotional pain, walks with me through the day, and sleeps with me through the night, leaving me depletes with no strength to fight. Anger for not having the courage to turn things around, keeping me anchored to this remorse, not able to untie the chains and change my course. False pride rules supreme, always there to whisper in my ear. Time, wasted and badly spent, lots of hurt, lots to repent. Solace, please come and calm my soul, for this is what I...

My Angel These words don't come easy, but they are things that I must say. See, I don't think I ever told you that I wished you would stay... I know it's not much use now, and that's what hurts the most, because without you down here,  my now angel, all of us are lost. I'm sure I didn't say it enough,  the words "I love you," I mean, and that's my biggest regret in life,  since now you're nowhere to be seen. I really hope you hear my prayer,  as I beg for your forgiveness. See, I never meant to cause you pain and all that grief and sadness.

If I Could Go Back For every time that I broke down There was a fake smile to cover the frown I hide behind lies when things got tough  Forced myself to think it was enough  My tears were masked by the rain Unseen by all, alone with my pain Each night was a cover to hide my cries  To keep from showing all these lies If I could go back, I'd change it all Stop myself from starting to fall Consumed by hatred, I lost all sight I knew what was wrong but it felt so right I couldn't live without the pain Or the anger pulsing through my vein Each truth a lie I learned to hold  While watching each one start to unfold If I could go back, all that would change These diamond lies wouldn't seem so strange  I'd undo my lies and make them true  Hold on tightly to all that I do Forget the bad, and think of only each day And what's to come, without dismay I'd forget that I cried those tears  Remember only e...